Why is that I always wait for a response from you?

Why is that I feel that unless you talk to me I can’t reach you?

Why is that I feel that you feel in a similar way?

Why is that I love you so much?

Why is that I’m scared to leave you?

Why is that I become vulnerable when I’m with you?

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I sense an unnoticed feeling every time I step out of the room and head to the terrace or outside these days!

I always get fascinated to see nature after a mammoth rain as everything will be pleasant and beautiful to witness! 

But after this pandemic situation, I feel as if I’m disconnected from my interest.

Another fascination which I’ve is, I just get lost by looking at those flock of chirping birds 🐦 and the Eagles which fly above us. 

Sometimes I get envious about them, not sometimes actually but from the time this pandemic situation arose, as they have no clue what’s going on around us. 

They are just living their regular routine, which all of us are thriving to get it.

Every morning I wake up and come up with this thought another day got triggered and what next? What all things I’m going to hear? 

I believe most of us are in the same situation!

Away from our family, loved ones, partners, your goals, your routines, your dreams! 

Let them know that “I’m there for you and we’re in this together “ by making a single call or a text message which is much needed during this pandemic situation.

Love you my fellow human beings! 

Stay safe!

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Happy 62nd birthday dad!

Time is passing of so quick, memories are rushing in my head like an express train.
I feel it’s like yesterday dad,

How you used to run behind us  in order make us ready for the school

Polish our shoes 

Press our clothes with a container filled with hot water, damn I still don’t know how to press my clothes dad 🤣

Dressing me up with school uniform.

Fast and bumpy ride to school.

Weekend maggi prepared by you.

Stealing money from you pocket.

Spilling out all mom’s secrets near you which I’m not supposed utter as per my deal with mom.

First day at office and seeing a million dollar smile on your face!

Our first own house

Kiran's marriage and vadinas entrance into your little family.

Nostalgic daddy!

I miss you dad ❤️  and love you!

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My calloused fingertips trace through your silhouettes of smooth, contrasting thighs of yours and navigate to your rounded hips.

Both our breath and inhalation whisper of longing, Longing to stay together!

I crave for your mouth, your cherry lips, your voice, your hair, I want to eat you like a jelly 😋

Making love is an art of living !

I feel like orchestrating your moans by playing the music with my finger inside you!

The most hardest task is unhooking women lingerie Because When men lose patience or in hurry the most easiest task becomes an hurdle for them ;)

Women body is like nature and it will be always a eyes feast to witness nature.

No matter how many times men see it, he will be always amazed as if he is seeing it for the first time. As men urges a lot for a women body, he feels the women body like as if he is an ocean, goosebumps all over him. Thriving to hold every bit of the nature.

Sometimes I feel "I wish I've an extra hand ".

I have the same urge now regards you! I want to emerge myself into the ocean and feel the nature again and again! Make love with you! Bite your vertical lips and write songs with my manhood inside you ;)

Beautiful! Thoughts about sex is always beautiful. If you ask me what's your first priority, money or sex(love). I would prefer love. 

It makes you alive! Reason for your existence, Reason for your bonding!

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LGBTQ+

I was growing up with several thoughts upon them, whenever I look at them I get frightened because they snatch money from people. I always see them near the traffic signals or trains or near shops asking for money! I spoke to myself pondering how rude of them as they snatch the money!

One day I was having breakfast in a restaurant and then a hijra I.e., transgender sat next to me. I was having food and at the same time I was scared looking at her worried that she’ll snatch away all the money from me and all of a sudden I’d started coughing, to my surprise she told thambi drink this water and eat properly, also, she monitored me till I finished with the food. While leaving she blessed me and told me to take care of myself.

At that point, I’d felt as if I spoke to my mother or sister and I didn’t get scared at all.

At that instant, my opinion towards them got changed and have come to the conclusion that a woman’s soul living in a different body, as I felt a woman in that hijra rather than a man or a person who snatches the money.

I ran to her and asked her Akka(elder sister), how are you dealing with it and her answer was,

I’d accepted that I’m a woman trapped in a men’s body and I’d started accepting it and I don’t require anybody’s approval!

Then why do you ask people for money? She told that I’m interested to work but where is the opportunity?

I want to work but no one offers me a job!

I want to study right from childhood but which educational institute is accepting me to study?

I don’t have any parents because they’ve disowned me after they got to know that I’m a woman in a man’s body!

If you believe in God then it’s his creation, If not it’s a glitch in the mother’s womb as I didn’t choose to exist in this way!

I felt that everything she told made sense, but how broadly our society is willing to accept in our country India?

In many other countries, it is legalized and so does in our country as well. But the way the people from LGBTQ+ community are treated in our country is entirely different compared to many other countries out there, they declare themselves as gay or lesbian or bisexual or transgender the moment they realise and people around them accept them for what they are and give them normal living.

But in our country, we are still living with this stereotypes and not accepting them.

Hopefully, the government should include about LGBTQ+ community in their educational system to give awareness that it’s normal and campaigns should be conducted to make people realise and break this stereotypes !

June month is officially declared as a Pride Month! on this month in the past, Brenda Howard, a bisexual activist, is known as the "Mother of Pride" for her work in coordinating the march, and she also originated the idea for a week-long series of events around Pride Day which became the genesis of the annual LGBT Pride celebrations that are now held around the world every June as Pride month!

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What are you doing?

Yes, I’m asking you what are you doing?

In this pandemic situation this is the question which arises in your head, maybe not with everyone but with few.

I ponder myself that am I living my life? What changed in me?

I always wondered how life of a bird would be in a cage?

I always wondered how life of an animal would be behind bars?

Never think too much on the such things, because you may end up being like that.

However, I’ve started living my life like this due to this pandemic situation.

Maybe, I never spoke to myself or heard myself all these years! Now due to the current situation ,I’ve started talking to myself, thinking about myself, understanding myself.

Its not that I’m not alone, I’ve started realizing that I’d never thought of myself!

If you get such thoughts, that means you’ve started trying to understand yourself .

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#SelfTalk

Run run run!

We humans run behind many things, running to achieve your aspirations or dreams which can be anything!

Some run behind love

Some run behind money

Some run behind lust

Some run behind people who don’t care about them

Some run behind success

In that race, only a few reach the end line, few stay a few backs and compensate their life with for triviality!

Why did I mention it as nothing? How can you compensate your wishes and dreams with something you never thought of?

Even though you did, you feel hallow and nothing 😁

Imagine, your running behind your loved ones and you left the race in between!!

She/he is marrying someone!

She/he is sleeping with someone!

All the place where you are supposed to be and not that something which you are not going to do it.

You’re running behind your dream of becoming a dancer but you halted the race in between and became someone which you never thought of.
End of the day you’re compensating with nothing 😁

Even after that we would be running, but this time we won’t be running behind it but running away from it.

RunRunRun…..

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